not even trusting yourself.
I thought a while ago I had my mind set, and things were going well for a while. But I was wrong. I actually made a promise to myself to "Trust myself" That didn't go to good.
Yeah, recently i made a few bad choices, but I don't regret any of them. You live and you learn. Thats all to it.
I just need to figure out one question.
WHEN WAS IT COOL TO ACT LIKE A FOOL?!
Recently I could sincerely say I was a screwing up. I was weak, I was down, I was pissed, I was confused; still am. Im not saying that i am going to change, but lets just say its slowly going to happen.
After one of the craziest nights i've had in a while, i got a reality check/wake up call from a wise man that i look up to, for guidance and etc. What was said was true, and it did shake my head up.
So if others believe in me, why cant i?
This really does sound pathetic and emo, not my type of shit.
So if others care about me, why cant i?
I got so much shit from friends and others telling me...
"Why are you skipping" "You better not be smoking" "what happen to you, you used to be smart" - OUCH! thanks a lot ex-girlfriend!
So if others can put there trust in me, why cant I?
I didnt even trust myself to get outside of a classroom today,
knowing if i did, i wouldnt come back!
So, where do i go from here?
Heres what
-Move the fuck on
-Im not looking back, whats done is done.
-Have my failure by my teacher, not my undertaker.
-GET MY ACT TOGETHER!
To end this, I would like to thank those who did show concern/guidance, etc.
You know who you are.
Over and Out
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Jordan Arenas
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